In The Darkest Place

All through the night you telephoned
I saw the light blinking red beside the cradle
But you don't know how far I've gone
*Now I must live with the lie (life?) that I made
But if I call, I know I won't have to say it
You'll hear my voice, something is bound to betray it
But do people living in Toledo
Know that their name doesn't travel very well
And does anybody in Ohio dream of that Spanish citadel
But it's no use saying that I love you
And how that girl really didn't mean a thing to me
For if anyone should look into your eyes
It's not forgiveness they're gonna see
You hear her voice, how could you do that
You hear her voice, how could you do that
So I walked outside in the bright sunshine
And lovers pass by smiling and joking
But they don't know the fool I was
Why should they care what was lost, what was broken
But if I call, I know I won't have to say it
You'll hear my voice, something is bound to betray it
But do people living in Toledo
Know that their name doesn't travel very well
And does anybody in Ohio dream of that Spanish citadel
But it's no use saying that I love you
And how that girl didn't really mean a thing to me
For if anyone should look into your eyes
It's not forgiveness they're gonna see
(repeat and fade)

I have to say that we should finish it now
Before we weaken 'cause we already know this is wrong
I could give in
Sometimes I think that I will
Despite the temptation I try to be very strong
If my reluctance seems a surprise
It's not 'cause I don't want you
But I just
Know I must
Hesitate
Because I still have that other girl in my head
I still have that other girl in my head
There may be ugly rumors that I have been lying
There may be angry tears but they're never worth the crying
That is why
Sometimes
I hesitate
Because I still have that other girl in my head
I still have that other girl in my head
I still have that other girl in my head
 

These rooms play tricks upon you
Remember when they were always filled with laughter
But now they're quite deserted
They seem to just echo voices raised in anger
Maybe you will see my face
Reflected there on the pane
In the window up above for long
In broken home
Yet this house is empty now
There's nothing I can do
To make you want to stay
So tell me how am I supposed to live without you
These walls were lined with pictures
Remember the glass we charged in celebration
But now I fill my life up
With all that I can to deaden this sensation
Do you recognize the face
Fixed in that fine silver frame
Were you really so unhappy there
You never said
So this house is empty now
There's nothing I can do to make you want to stay
So tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Oh, if I could just become forgetful
When night seems endless
Does the extinguished candle care
About the darkness
It's funny how the memory
Will bring you so close then make you disappear
Meanwhile all our friends must choose
Who they will favor, who they will lose
Hang the garden light?/high? or close the door
Or throw away the key
This house is empty now
There's no one living here
You have to care about
This house is empty now
There's nothing I can do
To make you want to stay
So tell me how am I supposed to live without you
This house is empty now
This house is empty now
There's nothing I can do
This house is empty now
This house is empty now

Think back now when we were young
There were always tears at the birthday party
You know how children can be
So cruel
That's how it starts but
What if we never learn how to behave?
I did something that you never forgave me
I never thought that it would be like this but now I see
I see you share your cake with him
Unwrapping presents that I should have sent
What can I do?
Must I watch you close the door, dim the light, blow out the candles?
So happy birthday again
And it's the same every year
Seems that I remember it as something more
You know how children can grow
So strange
I still adore you
What if we never learn from our mistakes?
But then you'll never know how my heart aches
I never thought that it would be like this but now I see
I see you share your cake with him
Unwrapping presents that I should have sent
What can I do?
Must I watch you close the door, dim the light, blow out the candles?
So happy birthday again
Someday I know he'll forget to pay you the compliments you're after
You'll hang your sad, aching head behind a brittle smile or a shrill of
laughter
What if we only get what we deserve?
Somehow I couldn't quite summon the nerve
Upon each anniversary do you ever think of me?
Unwrapping presents that I should have sent
What can I do?
Must I watch you close the door, dim the light, blow out the candles?
So happy birthday again

On a hot, sunny day
When your whites return to gray
That's when she'll arrive
When you look
How you feel
Someone steps upon your heel
That's when she will come
Listen now
I'm not saying that there will be violins
But don't be surprised if they appear
Playing in some doorway
Still I can't believe that this is happening
We're such unlikely lovers
Though no one seems to notice as they hurry by
Ask me what I'm thinking and I won't deny it
Can you believe it's happening?
There were no magic bells
You can keep the flowers and bells
They just don't seem right
Can it actually be
Me and you and you and me
We're like day and night

When I go to sleep you become my thief
Why don't you steal what you can keep?
But you won't let me be
You sneak into my dreams and every day seems different
Sometimes I pretend you'll come back again and you'll console the heart
you stole
Have pity on the man who knows that you have gone and has begun to break
down
I feel almost possessed
So long as I don't lose this glorious distress
Then you can take all I have left
I know it's over
If you can't be my lover, be my thief
I'm so drowsy now
I'll unlock the door
What fades in time will hurt much more
So here's that happy scene where you come back to me
It's only found in fiction
I didn't lead you on but there will always be a little larceny in
everyone
So hush and don't you cry
I'm trying to be kind because I have a perfect alibi
 

Did somebody try to catch your eye
And almost change your sad expression?
Did somebody's hand linger too long?
Must I now make my confession?
But you'll never know what suspicion is until you lie awake
And every night you ask yourself, "What am I to do?"
Can it be so hard to calculate?
When three goes into two, there's nothing left over
How's it gonna feel?
This time it's real
It's not a temporary fracture
This is what you get
The stage is set for you and your attempted rapture
Is he gonna smile that indulgent smile when you come running home?
And every night you ask yourself, "What am I to do?"
Can it be so hard to calculate?
When three goes into two, there's nothing left over
What am I gonna do?
I look at you
You seem to be so long past caring
Did somebody say we can still be friends?
Only to find out that it's a joke
So ask yourself
Can it be so hard to calculate?
When three goes into two, there's nothing left over
 

Such a picture of loveliness
Didn't you notice the difference?
Doesn't it look like she could speak?
Those eyes I try to capture
They are lost to me forever
They smile for someone else
Funny, how looks can be deceiving
But she's not easily painted from memory
You'd think that I would know by now
Those eyes I try to capture
They are lost to me forever
They smile for someone else
And so this had to be painted from memory
She is gone and I must accept it
She is lost to me now
But I can't look away just yet though
She smiles for someone else
And so this had to be painted from memory
Funny, now I can see how looks can be deceiving

You only saw red after I said, "How can we continue?"
Hidden from your view in the blue corner that I painted myself into
Then we started to fight and it changed everything
Here's the ring
You dropped the band
I can't understand it
Not after what we've been through
Words start to fly
My glass jaw and I will find one to walk right into
You knocked me out
It was the sweetest punch
The bell goes
I could hear it ringing but I didn't see you coming
We all say things we don't mean
You can't take it back
Now the room is spinning but......???????????
I can see I'll never win
So if you're going, then you better go with him
I only saw stars
I dropped my guard and that's how it ended
What was I to do in the blue corner where I seemed to be suspended?
Then with seconds to go you delivered blow
Here I go

What's her name today?
What's her name today?
She could be anyone
I might have known you'd leave her crying
What's her name again?
You should be ashamed
How could you treat her so unspeakably?
Or did you think she was a different girl?
For as the radio played in the bedroom wall
What was that name you called her?
Was she the one who took away your pride and your reason?
Oh why did you decide that you'd punish any girl you meet to try and
make that feeling go away?
What's her name today?
What's her name today?
Is her hair hanging down?
Or maybe it's fixed with a ribbon
Are her eyes still blue?
Should she trust you?
Because it's a lonely world
She wants to believe for a while in all the things you say
But as the radio played in the bedroom wall
What was that name you called her?
Isn't her smile reminiscent of someone else?
Well, is it or isn't it?
Oh why did you decide that you'd punish any girl you meet to try and
make that feeling go away?
What's her name today?
Is she going to stay so you can ruin her?
And soon she'll be twisted in chiffon
Dress her like a doll
String her like a pearl
She hears peals of bells but it's hard to tell
Now that she's hung up like a chandelier
 

God Give Me Strength
(Words sung by the character in the movie given in brackets)

Now I have nothing, so God give me strength
'Cause I'm weak in her [his] wake
And if I'm strong I might still break
And I don't have anything to share
That I won't throw away into the air
That song is sung out
This bell is rung out [This belle is wrung out]
[He] She was the light that I'd bless
[He] She took my last chance at happiness
So God give me strength, God give me strength
I can't hold onto [him] her, God give me strength
When the phone doesn't ring
And I'm lost in imagining
Everything that kind of love is worth
As I tumble back down to the earth
That song is sung out
This bell is rung out
[He] She was the light that I'd bless
[He] She took my last chance at happiness
So God give me strength,
God if [he'd] she'd grant me [his] her indulgence and decline
I might as well wipe [him] her from my memory
Fracture the spell as [he] she becomes my enemy
Maybe I was washed out like a lip-print on his shirt
See, I'm only human, I want him to hurt
I want him
I want him to hurt
[instrumental]
Since I lost the power to pretend
That there could ever be a happy ending
That song is sung out
This bell is rung out
[He] She was the light that I'd bless
[He] She took my last chance at happiness
So God give me strength, God give me strength